Why yes I am.
Thank you invisible non existers.
Why am I still doing it? Sheesh. I wish I knew. I’d like to say something great like I have amazing dedication, or perseverance. In truth, it’s simpler than that. I can’t stop. That’s not meant to sound cool. I just can’t. Nothing makes me happier than losing myself in a daydream and letting the stories run off.
But then…the end half finished.
What do I do?
I’ll never know the ends of them. I’ll never know the bits and pieces in between.
So I have to write them. Then I need to know what happens after that book and so on.
Catch 22. Wonderful.
And it never ends. It’s great. I just wish I could focus on writing all the time. Maybe one day I’ll be able to. That’s the hope—the dream.
And I’m doing my best. Grave Beginnings is doing better than I believe it could, winning awards and gaining a heckuva lot of reviews. Grave Measures is scheduled to come out in a few more months. And the beginning of a new series starts this December. Looks like I’m doing some things.
Am I doing them right however? Will the make a difference in my life.
God, I wish I knew.
Maybe if I keep it up, I’ll find out.
That’s why I write. I love being lost to reality in one of my own. So I guess I’m still a kid. One who doesn’t like leaving questions unanswered. In fact, I hate that. I hate not knowing. So I’ll follow through on the stories until the end.
I wish I had a far cooler reason than that. I don’t. So the one I have will have to do.
Maybe at the end of this I’ll have a shelf of my own books. Maybe that’s childish to some. But it’s sure something motivating to me. It’s pretty cool. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to go back and read them though.
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Believe me, I wish I could.
So now I have some answers for myself since no one really reads this blog. Although, I never expected anyone to.
But maybe, one day, like the writing.
Well I read this, and glad I did. Things change all the time. That day you mention, will properly sneek up on you before you know it. Right now, is what will make that day happen. Just keep going.
Thank you, and will do! *Salutes*